25th feb 2009( side quest)

- tution
I saw in the bulletin, after mass, that a ministry is looking for tutor. To be flank, i got no experience in teaching people, but i want to made my time useful and there is no harm trying.

i invited two of my friend to join me in teaching the kids. These two friends of mine look more like a tutor than me. I look more like a biker than a gentle teacher.

One of them accepted my invitation, and fall in love with teaching the kid. i also have my share of joy while teaching the kid assigned to me.

I learned that teaching is about letting the student know the concept, it about using the concept that i had learned to anaylise the question rather than just memorise and trying their luck. interacting with the kid is also very important. even though it is being a tutor for free, but the joy in the heart is priceless.


-insurance

Insurance is very important. I put my trust in the insurance product but not the person pitching to me.

I was injuried and praise god that i had brought an insurance plan to cover all my bills for day surgery.

To made claim, just call the customer service officer of the plan that you brought and tell them all the detail they want. They will sent a NOG to the hospital to made the claim.

without insurance, all your hard earn money will be deleted very fast by hospital bills.

Using a insurance product also comes with experience.

-routine cum focus

Routine create a habit.

when i was nursing my wound at home. i contiune to practice my move for my sports, and to my surpise i made much improvement on my moves within two days. it about how much time you put in perfecting a skill,and not just attending it.


-heart

The old saying in holy books and teaching all says that "everything start in the heart".

actually it start in the mind first then "rooted" in the heart. that is why some religion have meditation. meditaiton is the control of thought to guard the heart.

18th feb 2009 (skill)

Skill is something that is fun at the beginning.It get boring in the middle, and it become all worth it at the end.

It like hiking up a mountain, half way to the top is cover by all the same looking trees and more trees for almost half a day.At the top is the most beautiful scenery that last only for a hour because of thirst and hunger.After hiking down from this mountain means we must hike up again to see the beautiful scenery

Sometime putting all the effort in training doesn't mean we can get the result we want. Just like a Hiker forgot to bring his camera when he reach the top.. Or half way he just want to quit and take a swim..

There also talented people who can master a skill at a very short time and those who have the passion to made his skill like an art,like those regular hiker who made walking up the mountain seems like running.

In the middle of every skill development is the boring part, it where mistake are everywhere.People and situation are stopping us.we are stopping our self.It seems that we have try everything but nothing seems to work.

Like hiking through the middle of a mountain, stamina are running out,water are finishing,team mate are arguing,people lost trust in each other,the leg can't take it anymore and accident happens after an accident.

After completing one skill, to take it to the next level mean to search for a tougher challenge.

Just like looking for a new mountain to hike...

8th feb 2008(Love...)

I used to be a romantic guy.

I am a sucker for the feel of that romantic feeling in those drama.For example;

Doing everything to please the girl
Need their demand.
Taking the girl of my dream to the sea side to catch the breeze.
sending tons of flowers to her.

I had done all that to a girl and the end result was that girl rejected me.

I not quite a "once bitten twice shy" kinda guy, so i had been doing my romantic act for those girl who i fallen in love with and none of them accepted me.

In the end, i try to get straight to the point by asking the girl without those romantic act.And i was instantly in a relationship which did;t last.

You can say that i became cold hearted toward love.

I not a kind of guy who give up on myself easily,however i knew that i can't advance anywhere in life when i just stuck to discover what is love. I had to learn this weird and fate linking thing as i work toward my goal.

I take this learning process as a side quest to understand it.

I heard,ask,read and try this stuff called love. i find that there is really no fix formula for this thing call love.

As 2008 passes by me and i had achieved what i planned. i beginning to understand what love is about....

The first type of love is called "puppy love", the most common type of love, is where two people met up and didn;t quite understand each other all they know is that they love each other.A fast and furious relationship.

the second type of love is the "bonding love". It what you called the friends to lover relationship. To be flank, i think this is called fate.It where a guy and a girl goes through thick and thin together and they form that feeling and understanding for each other.

The third type of love is called confusing love or unwilling love.
This type is either they are marry for the sake of being marry or they are together because they are lonely.Some is for the sake of boosting their egos.

I used to think that love is about how i felt, but now i realise is about how the other party felt.

And most important is about asking each other to give each other that chance to made a different in each other life.


will i able to write down my experience of a realistic love and ask if she is able to give herself this chance this 2009?

I will plan out and let the Lord decide.