8th feb 2008(Love...)

I used to be a romantic guy.

I am a sucker for the feel of that romantic feeling in those drama.For example;

Doing everything to please the girl
Need their demand.
Taking the girl of my dream to the sea side to catch the breeze.
sending tons of flowers to her.

I had done all that to a girl and the end result was that girl rejected me.

I not quite a "once bitten twice shy" kinda guy, so i had been doing my romantic act for those girl who i fallen in love with and none of them accepted me.

In the end, i try to get straight to the point by asking the girl without those romantic act.And i was instantly in a relationship which did;t last.

You can say that i became cold hearted toward love.

I not a kind of guy who give up on myself easily,however i knew that i can't advance anywhere in life when i just stuck to discover what is love. I had to learn this weird and fate linking thing as i work toward my goal.

I take this learning process as a side quest to understand it.

I heard,ask,read and try this stuff called love. i find that there is really no fix formula for this thing call love.

As 2008 passes by me and i had achieved what i planned. i beginning to understand what love is about....

The first type of love is called "puppy love", the most common type of love, is where two people met up and didn;t quite understand each other all they know is that they love each other.A fast and furious relationship.

the second type of love is the "bonding love". It what you called the friends to lover relationship. To be flank, i think this is called fate.It where a guy and a girl goes through thick and thin together and they form that feeling and understanding for each other.

The third type of love is called confusing love or unwilling love.
This type is either they are marry for the sake of being marry or they are together because they are lonely.Some is for the sake of boosting their egos.

I used to think that love is about how i felt, but now i realise is about how the other party felt.

And most important is about asking each other to give each other that chance to made a different in each other life.


will i able to write down my experience of a realistic love and ask if she is able to give herself this chance this 2009?

I will plan out and let the Lord decide.