Sunday, December 28, 2008
28th Dec 2008(Experience)
It is another crisis in life that will soon come to pass like all other thing in life.The unluckily one may get their "recess" but not to be sad as there a saying "resting oneself is to go a longer distance"
All this period in life will let one accumulate wisdom, insight and sometime resentment.All those thing is called experience.
Experience is one thing people can look back and find certain answer to the future problem.It made a person become stronger from his setback and mistake, provided that person is alive to learn it.
Experience can be both painful and sweet.Making it an emotional roller coaster.
Let me share ab it of my experience with certain thing i had try and i had getting better from it.
The first thing i would like to share is my first experience of riding a 150cc motorbike.
When i first got my motorbike from a buyer at the Internet, i was at least more than 40km away from my estate.I got on the bike, start it and i go hit the road with totally no idea how to go back.
I also totally forgotten half of my traffic rules.
changing lane is a big chore, as i turn my head back and forth thrice before making a change.i manage to made it to the expressway and made a big loop around Singapore.Even through i riding at 60km/hr, my heart is racing at top speed of 140bpm.
I had a revelation that God grace is enough to pull me through all my problems as i found out when i got home that my fuel tank is on "reserve" and the battery is already flat.
The second thing I'm going to share is about my experience with love.
To put it simple, love is like having the other person smiling image stuck in your head.Everything about the other person is nice when one is falling in love.Those nice thing include the smile,the eye,saliva,sweat and body odour all is like a gift from heaven.Holding someone you love will takes your breath away.Love will made big chemical reaction of racing heart beat and raging hormones.
Man and woman both wants love and lust.As both are human being.
The big question in all raging hormones single head is how to be love.
I confirm that to be love, one has to follow a basic rule and that is
"Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find."
Thursday, December 18, 2008
18th Dec 2008(Good News)
I here to write about this topic called "Good news".
As you all know, news got good and bad.Good news uplift the soul and bring smile to face.Bad news brings anxiety, fear and uncertainly.
The most common and interesting news that people like to hear or read is the Bad news.This kind of news can be found in almost every Newspaper.From Gossip in the entertainment world, to unfortunate accident in the real world and weird thing people get themselves into.These bad news capture attention of million reader compare to the good news that Bill Gate is giving billion of dollar to charity.
Even through it is interesting to read, the effect of bringing the fear of uncertainly is there.
I once read a Book written by Mary Carlomagno titled "Give it up!My year of learning to live better with less".The book is about her journey to give up certain habit in life to live better within a year.
In one of the chapter that caught my attention is her attend to give up reading newspaper.
Can you imagine that? Giving up reading newspaper?Is like shutting yourself away from the happening world.People will be laughing at anyone who doesn't know what is going on in this exploding world of information.
She replace her habit of reading newspaper by reading Poems.Positive and uplifting poems was read, first thing in the morning, instead of newspaper.
Not only did she save a huge amount of money from not buying newspaper, she felt really good and motivated first thing in the morning.It really a food for thought.
The cure for "monday blues"? A good book that tell you how wonderful this world is.
Monday, December 8, 2008
9th Dec 2008(Homework)
When i was the age of 16, and begun to take lesson in martial art, i began to see the important of homework from this activity that i had taken up.
My senior in martial art always told us that in order to achieve near perfection in the movement, one have to train at home everyday.
When time passes by as i had experience all the sweet and sour in life, i learned that not only did we need to train everyday for the movement, we need to read up material on the subject in order to change on the thing that we need to train everyday.Only this way we can improve in the area of field we are in.
By then, i had a revelation of the Principal of homework.
Homework is a constant work of practice, problem solving,planning,research,testing and insight on whatever field that we are in.The principal that i had realise is so simple and yet time after time i had forgotten to apply, how i wish to tattoo this revelation on my arm.
Monday, December 1, 2008
2nd Dec 2008(Stories)
The book is all written in Chinese,it is like a Chinese version of "chicken soup for the soul."
After I've reading the book, i begun telling stories to my two senior of what i had just read.i had manage to capture their attention and they are interested in the stories that i had told them.
I had manage to kill three hour of idle time in my workplace.
Story is a form of communication.A form of idea,view and inspiration.
Most charismatic leader uses story to spread their intended message.
Most great man uses story to inspire people.
Story telling give listener the same "addictive" feeling as listening to gossip of other people,the only different is the positive effect of the message in the story.Gossips, on the other hand had a negativity effect of pulling down other.
Everybody got a story to tell.It depend on how inspiring the story can get that lead people to remember it for a long time.Stories that is sad,negativity,sadist and full of blame only stay in the mind of people for short time.After all, everybody can complain,It is human nature
Stories that is uplifting is of a human spirit.
I used to tell a story of "Rocky Balboa" to a girl who is about to take her A level in a month's time.I told her the author of "rocky balboa"(in very brief summary) is a poor chap who dream big,His dream is to be a actor.He spent all his time trying to be an actor of his own script that he had wrote.When his cash had run out before he found his big chance,he decided to sell his favourite dog to an old man for cash to continue looking for it.(This author had a hard time to become an actor because of his speech and mouth problem)
Finally, he found big chance to act.This author offer the old man, who he sold his dog to,for a chance to play in his movie by giving him a role as a trainer.In return of his dog.
The girl was inspired by the story which I've told her.She worked hard for her A level, after she finished watching "Rocky Balboa" series....
Saturday, November 29, 2008
30th Nov 2008(Alternative)
Another couple plan to just relax on east coast beach.When the day had arrived,it happened to be raining heavily also.So the boyfriend had a change of plan.He called his girlfriend and said that he was busy.So the guy spend the whole day playing video games at home.
Both guys from the stories had a change of plan, but only one person had achieved his actual intention.
I once had a friend who told me to stay in a place where i took all kind of alternative solution and nothing seems to turn out well, he got very frustrated(very fast) and said i was a quitter.I was confused at that time between when to actually give up and when to keep on trying.Eventually, i left the place to look for the solution.
I learned that taking alternative means trying to achieve the same goal by taking different approaches and methods.
It may sound easy, it will get harder once the pressure get high and quitting become the easy way out.
In our daily life, we can find all sort of people looking for alternative solution.
Foreigner having a tough time making a living at their own country, leave their country to look for a better life.
When i was younger, i saw this documentaries about a cancer patient.
The doctor said he has cancer, and chances for him to recover is very mild.He is going to die.
The patient(this guy is from japan) refuse to resign to his fate.He decided to take alternative measures.
He begin to spend his time researching on books that taught him all kind of ways to boost his health.
He took all kind of raw vegetable and vitamin pills everyday.He exercises to keep fit and keep himself thinking positivity everyday.He try yoga and a weird of exercise that allow him to "bath" in the sun everyday.
After years, the doctor examined him and found that he was cured.
The question here is this, he did drop the idea of going to the hospital to receive treatment.Is he a quitter?
I believe there is a grey area for any person to be label a quitter or conqueror when it comes to finding an alternative solution.It's either a "political" view or a personal view to label the person.
Monday, November 24, 2008
24th Nov 2008(shaky)
He told us that working for a bank is the best thing.He point out that working with financial related line is the most stable as people need bank for loans and deposit of money.Banks never run out of money.
His theory was prove wrong during this time of "financial tsunami".As DBS has fired 900 of their employee.And in the recently news, Citigroup has fired more than thousands of employees.
Words spoken by man is never final.I've learned this truth from experience.The only thing that last in a man is his Principal.
Words spoken by a person,mix with confidence and charismatic attitude,can made even the most educated person can be deceived.
By the recently news, most of us would have spotted a common trend in telling the reader of people getting cons or mislead by timeshares,structures bonds and shaking insurance investment.
Television program even started to question about the stability of insurance policy.
Which made people wondering who to trust, and where to find stability in this even changing world
People all have interior motive, and trusting an influence people will lead to being manipulated by them.By sabotaging ourselves in believing in their words, we can't blame anyone but ourselves
Prehaps it time to put trust on the "old fashion things" like wisdom and Principal?
Friday, November 7, 2008
8th Nov 2008(Expectation)
I once had a great expectation of getting this girl, to be my girlfriend,who i like when i was training in martial art in my secondary school time.After a giving in hard effort of trying and years of waiting, she suddenly told me that she went to America to study for five years.And she didn't even say anything about "waiting for her".
Of course that incident is only a little part of my life.
There is a lot of things beside the incident that I've mention which i have given great expectation or what people call it "hopeful thinking".
However, the higher the expectation.The greater the shock when things didn't turn out as i expected it to be.
I began to lower my expectation of things as i begin to set high goal with very detail planning and "baby step" to start my first step on everything.
Most of the time, i didn't even expect anything good out of anything and i learn to be happy on the small and simple thing in life, such as eating and breathing.
So far the things that had happen this year to me has been way above my expectation.
My level of expectation didn't raises as things goes my way, as the fear build up as i had been repeatedly hitted by the "shock" over the years..
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
4th NOV 2008(black November)
This month i was suprise by a called that i was hired by St.mary of Angel newspaper ministry to write for their paper.
I was on cloud nine when i heard this as i was planning to be hired as a volunteer writer within six month and i got hired within a month.
As a freelance writer, i need to gain experience first before selling my skill to client, as the time used for experience gaining, i can accumlate my portfolio.
Every November, I was taught by experience a very importance lesson on decision making.
It is true to what they say, "what are your choices that you made today determine where you are tomorrow"
I still remember it is this month that i made all the decision that turn my life upside down.From quitting a job,found another Job, to leaving (chrismatic)chruch,to enjoy Sin like there is no God in my heart, to made a decision to be fully bapist and finally to join an educational insitute.
It is every year of this month, that situation will turn out either the worst of it or the best of it, base on my decision.
In 2006 November, i learned that there is no such thing as shortcut in life, looking for shortcut to success is like building a road to failure.I thought i can made friends easily in chruch and get my degree easily from a private school and earn near to ten thousand every month.However things is not how i think it was.And all didn;t work out.
It takes time,patience,characther and situation(bad situation) to build up a friendship that last.Not just come together for some event and ask to smile at each other.And getting a degree is about how much commitment a person is willing to put in to learn the skill.that includes going down and dirty on the field and on the job to gain that experience.
At 2007 November, i learned that lied is everywhere.Yes, it everywhere.It is a truth which i not lying.
From courtship between lover, to work colleague, to a speech of "hope" from a saleman or financal planner and a chruch leader that speaks beautifully of how you can depend on him.
And lies is like a principle of building a house on a sand.It is easy to build,but as weather gets bad everything goes down.
Lies is like honey, it is very sweet.It is a fairytale.skillful liar wants the listener to do what they say in order to feed them more "honey".And liar love to give their listener half the truth.And in every lies, there is alway a fix ending of hope.
Truth is painful, truth is harsh.There is no fairytale in it and there is never a fix ending.But the way of truth lead to life and a peace of mind which worth more than Gold or diamond.
At 2008 November, i learn the reason behind the bondage of sin.And why the saint said that "there is no freedom in Sins".It take me though an emotional torture and hell to know this truth.One mistake in enjoying Sin and the punlishment is not afterlife but It is a death sentence to the life we are living in.And the toture will last in the person heart on every single breath he takes till his last breath.
This is not a religious peaching!!turn away from sin!!it has no benefit in it.One mistake in Sin and everyday of your life is like living in hell.Burn by guilt, shame,and toture to your mind,body and soul!!turn away from sin!!run away like you saw a ghost,run away like someone is going to beheaded you.Don't get near it.Get volient if someone wants tempt you to Sin.It worth beating up someone who tempt you,then fall to the temptation of Sin.
A peace of mind is worth everything.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
13th oct 2008(Money)
That is how the silk road from china is create.
Some may say, there are people who does it for passion, like an explorer,in history, who set sail on a ship to find a new land.The captain may be doing it for passion, but not the crew member(they did it for money).And one captain cannot possibility control the whole ship.
I knew a friend who once quoted to me that "money is oxygen"
One of the thing people question about money is, does money bring happiness? It a "yes" and a "no" to this question.
No, is because we gave our time in exchange for money, and to made more money means you have to spend more time.Time spend in working, investing,planning,networking,selling,buying,stock up good,study and Etc.
And because of us spending too much time on making money.We lack of the time to spend with our family and our friends, relationship is what matter the most in life.
Yes, is because if a person doesn't have a lot money.He can't do a lot of things and the environment around him is slowly taking away his money.Things such as taxes,transport fee,food,house loan,utilities bill and getting charged for jaywalking and throwing litter.He can't enjoy the things in life.(unless he decide to take a career to be some religion holy man which also hard because he needs money to take the course,and you reader think is free?)
I think the best way is learning how to handle money. Instead of being too passion about money or too hack care about it.Material to learn such stuff can be found from bookstore and library.
It wise to also take advise from people that are rich.Who is a good friend, and you saw it with your own eye really own the wealth.both "behind the screen" and in front of every body's eyes
Taking advise from people about money is a very dangerous move, and must chose wisely who you listen to.There is a lot of reason for this
If the person is poor, he will give you advise like saving up and go gambling.Or just use up whatever you have, since tomorrow you might die anyway.
If the person is wants to cheat on you, he will advise you to invest in him and his so called "idea",since he got the ability to own a car and setting up his own company which you saw it with your own eyes but don't know what is the whole story behind those things.He got the right not to tell you the whole "idea" that he is having.
After all everything is what he says(the point is you don't even follow him 24/7), and i can even say that i had been to the moon to try moon walking.
If the person is on average side of financial state, he will just advise you on saving up and study to upgrade.which i find so far is the safest advise.
But an average person advise even though is the safest but it's not really that safe.
Do you guys heard of the term "life saving",and the most common figure you get when you saw on "life saving" is $250,000.Let's do some math.
Let say you earn 1400 dollar monthly, and you manage to save 700 dollar for a month.(wow that is half, which is of course very hard).And in a year that will be around 8400 dollar a year.Add in another three months and you got ten thousand dollar in your bank.which mean in an average of one year three month to get ten thousand dollar.
To get a sum of 250,000, it take you an average of 26 years!!
And if you are one of those who buy DBS unit trust that has been "sabotage" by lebhman brother. half or none of your "life saving" will be left.
And that is one of the many reasons why even a financial planners advice is equally dangerous.
If you got a serious chronically illness, a month in hospital is going to cost you a bomb and in two years times, the 250,000 dollar will be left with only a few thousand dollar.
So the best advice to get about money is from the rich guys, after all they are already rich.
Some rich guy will write books to teach people, and they already get the extra money from selling those books,the tactic inside the books are "hard to chews facts"
the price to pay for the advice is the money you pay for the book.sound logical?
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
8th oct 2008(correct answer)
We cannot do thing that is out of the context of whatever it been taught to us.
writing compensation topic must be within the acceptable level, if not, even if it's logical it is consisted a work of a retard.whatever teacher says is correct, even if he or she is bias toward to a much nicer looking student.
It is the hidden flaw of society,once any group that have been establish, a system will be created.a culture to serve a main purpose or some one's purpose.we must do and say in a style according to the system.
We all know it, we all just don't want to care about it.just swept it under the curtain.If you really want to say it, you are an outcast.
Here is a list of thing that we shouldn't do:
- Kill someone we hate.
- wish someone will murder that person who betray us.
- stop paying taxes
- shout at the lecturer that he is wasting our time
- ran a car over a person who just cheated your money and your love.
- tell everybody that the gracious movement is totally not logic at all.
- Kiss the girl that you like who already has a boyfriend.
- telling a person who will do anything for you that you are making use of him or her.and he is stupid enough to be so nice to you.
- making use of your looks to get what you want
- Wish certain religion group will just disappear
- cheat your way for a living by telling half the truth
These are the things that not suppose to surface.it will create Chaos.these thing exists.If you read the comment by people who put fakes name in the Internet forum,you can spot at least three to four point that i had mention.
So a system with rule and regulation will be create for the good of everybody, but people become too robotic or abuse the system.
Recently, there had been a complain in the newspaper about people in Singapore not clearing up their bowls,dishes and cups when they are eating in public places(yes,I'm making the point very clear).But, the thing is, most public eating places already hired people to clear for us.What is the point of raising such issue?
It totally a correct political suggestion or complain that has no logic in it.
Once a friend of mine from my ex Church contacted me and ask me out for drink, i agree without thinking because it my first off day and i still got two off day to go and nothing to do(that time i just got the job, and i didn't join martial art yet).
It was nice, he treated me a nice meal.
then his plot started, he began to peach insurance to me (despite i told him i already brought from great eastern plus invested in unit trust).And started telling me to go back to Church(for information i already a catholic and going regularly to Church).i must say he is an expert in using political answer.
i put it in a point form of what tactic he use, so next time when you reader came across the same thing, you will know how to react.it the same tacitc uses almost everywhere, they learn from each other.
Tactic 1:
My friend: "Sam, come on.come back to our Church just like old times"
Me:" i already change Church, and i going to Church worshipping as old time what wrong with that?"
my friend:"i know, it nothing wrong. but it also nothing right about it"
Me:"what is wrong about it?"
My friend: -silent-
Tactic 2:
My friend:"i know why you are upset, maybe it because of someone in the Church that making you upset, or maybe it thing doesn't go your way, or maybe it the group." (politically correct)
Me:"nothing of that have happen, i just want to leave, because i don't like it there" (politically wrong)
my friend: "politic happen everywhere,Sam.don't take it too hard"
Me:"so now you are saying your Church is a bad place, and they are playing politic?"
my friend:"Sam..."(further answer will result in a wrong political answer)
Tactic 3:
My friend:"i know, you are cover by insurance.but there is no harm buying more."(a clever "nice guy" want credit from bringing me back to Church and getting money from the policy i buy from him)
Me: "i know you in need of money and need me to buy insurance from you, so you can get the commission from the policy.ok i will help"
My friend:" no, you don't understand,you need your finance planned out as you see i worry about your finance.and also to be cover as you know you hasn't been praying as you left Church a lot of things will happen.As you know you sometime can be abit..."(he is talking to a guy who save half his salary per month and using it for investment)
Me:" if you say you need help, i as a friend will buy from you.but since you deny it. i don't want to buy from you, because you are a lousy sale man".
My friend:"What are you talking about sam?haha... i DON'T get any commission from the policy i sell to you, i only providing you a service,ya i do get abit of money for the service i provide to the customer but it not much"
Me:" not much? commission that is given monthly to you as a form of salary from what i have given to the policy every month is not much?"(he is really beating around the bushes)
My friend: "no lah no lah, you got it all wrong. it didn't receive any commission..."(his ex girlfriend told me that he is a qualify insurance agent,and "Dr money" in sunday newspaper already wrote about commission pay job about insurance agent)
Me:"i not buying, if you contiune and don't shut up, i will just leave"
Thursday, October 2, 2008
2nd oct 2008(Risk)
At the age of 16 years old, my mum told me that one of my relative was injured by fire when trying to cook instant noodle(i heard he was cooking Maggie curry chicken favour noodle)
At age 17,I read a news about an old Ganny in hong kong was scalded to death by water from a water heater when using it to bath.And another news report at that same year of a middle age lady in Singapore get killed when she was been hit by a bicycle.
At a mature of age of 20 , i saw a guy get shot by a bullet which rebounds from the wall when doing life range using his revolver during national service.
Just recently, this year.My friend's supervisor get burn in the eye when acid got shot out from a chemical drum.He recovered from the accident, his eye is doing well.(yesterday his finger got burn by acid)
The stuff i mention, you all know it.You all can't denied it.It is the risk in life.The moment you wake up from your bed,we are facing risk.
The point here is about taking risk in your life to get what you wanted in life. i know, you should be thinking things like "you want me to take risk after what you just wrote on your blog??"
Yes, of course.Why not?
Everyday we are facing risk,From the moment you are walking,eating and sleeping we all face unwanted risk.
Why not take risk in our life and give ourselves that chance to get the things we wanted in life?
There is a lot of thing that have risk in it and i made a list:
Asking the girl you like out on a date.
playing sport that you really like.
the job that you always wanted.
the competition you always want to go.
Go into business.
Play with investment.
Stand up for yourself by letting that someone know you are angry.
ride a motorcycle.
Quit your job which they take you from granted
Etc.
I know it hard.It risk... and you know it in your heart what kind of risk you are going to face.But it better than letting normal day risk in life getting the best of us.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
1st oct 2008(Learning)
The only problem in America is that they doesn't tax well enough(Most of them don't really care about their debts), and the solution in this book seems to be making this problem worst and kicking logic out of the window by letting hardworking people pay tax for people who doesn't even care.And chuck Norris is dumbfounded by the these question raise by the writer on national television.
It a learning point for me, as i on my way to be a writer.On how fact, logic and idea must be deliver carefully by the word i chose.
Everybody made mistake, there is one wise man in a book i read once quoted "Wise man learn from their mistake, wiser man learn from other people mistake"
The recent months happening in the world, made these a time to learn from other people mistake.
Firstly, this is the tainted milk product FROM china.Using chemical that is something like plastic to raise protein level of diluted milk?!!
Causes close to thousand of china baby having kidney problem because their kidney can't get rid of it as it form crystal inside it (I think china need to re plan on their one child policy).
Making the wise word like"there is no shortcut to success" and "be patience" a whole new level.
Secondly, is the shaky status of insurance giant AIG, making ton of people in Singapore that is holding AIA policy giving up their policy(some of them queuing up is not a policy holder they just want to catch the excitement).
The wise word here is "Never say never, never say even", "Risk is part of life"
and my favourite "only simpleton believe everything they heard".(this for policy holder who believe in the agent and not doing research by themselves)
And lastly,the recent news of national service man's sub machine gun(yes, a powerful assault rifle use in war.Not the small gun you saw in "heart lander" on channel 5) misfire at another NS man groin(Nutcracker!!!) and the mystery death of another NS man during training.
The wise word to here is "Take care of yourself, because nobody will" and "pray more, because you need it"
So it ok to made mistake, we are all here to learn.
30th sep 2008(A day)
I began to "envy" people who are working office hour, but then again "too much of a good thing is not good".The office hour people have to work five days in a week and that mean total of twenty five days in a month, doing the same stuff smelling the stuff.So i counted myself lucky.
Have you even think of stuff like, what is there to entertain us in this small but successful country we are standing on?
I too began to think of this question because i really need to think of such question(staying at home too much isn't healthy)
Let's me share with you some of the thing i had done so far, so as to serve as a tips to let you plan for your weekend or weekday(if you are doing shift work like me)
At early this year at the month of April, i went to take course on NCAP at civil service college located at bouna vista, which is a course for coaches. As you all know i love martial art and it is a sport, so i wanted to get closer to sport people and at the same time learn some new skill. I meet up with my primary school friend Ted, and his coaching buddies.And have a lot of fun chatting and learning at the same time.After taking the test and get our Cerf we are a much more happier person.
At June, i began to "shopping" for martial art.The first choice i go is to check up a karate dojo at McCain road near Boon keng, the surrounding place got this "classical feeling", and the dojo is really cool.. However it abit far, even though i a rider and the place give me the feeling like there is going to be a lot of children training in it.I ended up going to look for sanshou(wushu sparring) at woodland community centre and found out that it has close down.
Finally on one Thursday night, i went to check up a special freestyle karate at kim seng Community centre and found out, that it really doesn't suit my shift timing and the member is like only a handfuls. feeling discourage, i sat on my bike and left for turf city at bukit timah where J H kim taewondo school is at.And the administer at the school really give her time to explain to me about how the school is like.So i joined at July.
At August, i get to know a "pillion buddy".She tag along with me to explore Singapore.We went to changi beach,bedok,hongaug,sengkang,tampiness,cityhall,holland village,clementi road,bukit timah and finally bishan.
My favourite is the changi beach, it is nice and quiet.really give the feeling like it is the outskirt of Singapore.And of course we witness a big fire at johor side during our short stay at changi beach.
In closing, i have done thing like taking course,take up sports and go sight seeing. Singapore isn't a boring place after all.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
29 sept 2008 (pressure)
i found the definition of pressure in the wikipedia wed site, in simple form it like putting air in a balloon, the air create pressure in the balloon and if the balloon can't take it anymore it will explore in your face(if you are using the mouth).
i observe that the starting of putting pressure in any container is easily and fast, but when the pressure start to build up, putting any more pressure inside is hard and slow.
NO, I'm not writing science stuff.. it will put you to sleep.(And that made me a very failure writer)
I observe that whatever law is at physic seems to apply the same to our mind and body when it comes to achieving our goal.
I remember when i took on this job,saving money,train up,self discipline myself into praying,rejoin martial art(finally after 5 years) everything seems easy at the start. It feel easy, new , refreshing.
At work, i looking forward to report in early, ask a lot of questions, volunteer to take on new task and improve on whatever mistake i made.
At sport, every off day i will go to training and go to you tube to check up how to execute certain moves.doing flexibility training.
Everything is good.easy,fun and en joyful.
As time when pass, thing becoming harder.
At work, I began to turn up late at work,stop asking question,lose the interest and sometime slacking off.
At sport, i began to get lazy at training,turn up less for class and began to train lesser at home.
What is the reason behind all this? the reason is pressure.
I began to feel stress as i encounter with difficulty and i don't know how to handle it.i forgot the first feeling i got when i first started off.It is the most common thing people have face, and being human i also experience it.
the answer to this question i found is knowing what you want. As I began to ask myself is this what i want? and the answer is "Yes". And strangely after i got the answer, the "pressure" seems to go away.
I found the energy to do all the thing i planned to do, and relive the first feeling i got for the things i enjoy doing.
For today it is the same principle apply, i didn't feel like writing, i feel like just quitting.But this is what i wanted to do, i have to discipline myself even though i don't feel like writing.
there is a different being wanting to do it and a need to do it.I got the perfect situation that i encounter to explain my point;
There are time in my past, when i was in my ex Church, i didn't WANT to go and i didn't WANT to do thing they told me to do.
It is something that i FEEL that NEED to do(i am a responsible christian last time, but now a catholic still loving God only). The speaker really talk his way through, and i was struggling with myself and peer pressure, i know in my heart that my love is at martial art.(if you end up fighting with you self, you end up on the floor whether you win or lose).
They always "encourage" them to do certain things like turning up for chruch's event( by putting unwanted pressure and peer pressure on you), and "encourage" by your peers in chruch to turn down whatever plans you have in order to attend their events.Even plan like visiting your parent who is in the hospital, they will "encourage" you to turn it down.(i not making this up)
the things that i mention is the perfect case study to let you know what kind of pressure get you ahead like a good compress natural gas cylinder(CNG) that power up a car and what kind of pressure made you burst like a balloon.
After all diamond are create under high pressure underground.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
28th sep 2008(the bright side)
Sound uplifting?There is always two side to one situation.
Work give people the satisfaction of them making themselves useful, giving their service to the company which made up part of the financial grow of the country.
Having a lot of work available in the country, made the country strong and rich.It made us independent as we are spending our own bucks.
Some of you might be thinking of stuff like "who give the heck about the country? I sick of having to work everyday and get so low pay when everything is going up" You might say that you didn't want say about the "country" stuff, but come on, i know that we don't normally say stuff that school or the society tell us NOT to say. but it the truth.
The fact is, not every job you have to work everyday behind the desk letting the computer starring at you sleeping or standing in a shopping centre starring at ceiling(counting the lines and spiders) doing stuff that are totally giving you the "blues".If you are willing to get real extreme, work can be fun and come with a lot of money.
There are total of 72 Lines, both include white collar and blue collar jobs.From pest control,car washer,salesman,technician,logistic,marine, solider,police officer, air stewardess,private investigator,broker,fire fighter, pastor,martial art instructor,dispatch rider,chief,chemist, gym instructor,sport man(this is tough in Singapore),dance instructor,dancer, singer(in a small club),social escort,IT specialist,nurse, doctor,man hunter(there are already three Singaporean went to Indonesian to hunt for Mr Mas),journalist,hairdresser,banker,farmer,fisherman,gravedigger, undertaker.....ETC
The list can on and on.
a Desk bound job is way out of the fashion for me, i used to know an "answer man"(people who thought they know what is best for you) who happen to be a leader in Church(ex-Church actually) who told me to just find a normal desk job and live my life safely and i did landed myself on the job(the pay was really out)
by the grace of God, i did get fired from the job after three months(God knows best) and i landed myself as a chemical technician and i find this job really out of the ordinary .(And the pay is rewarding), it been 11 month and i really learn a lot about myself from this job.
i am really regret for even to listen and follow the "answer man"
I didn't say desk bound is not good, it just not for me. A job is a personal choice based on what you really want in your life and not on some "answer man".Job is a divine calling from the man above.
Happy working.