4th NOV 2008(black November)

It's another happening month.
This month i was suprise by a called that i was hired by St.mary of Angel newspaper ministry to write for their paper.
I was on cloud nine when i heard this as i was planning to be hired as a volunteer writer within six month and i got hired within a month.

As a freelance writer, i need to gain experience first before selling my skill to client, as the time used for experience gaining, i can accumlate my portfolio.

Every November, I was taught by experience a very importance lesson on decision making.

It is true to what they say, "what are your choices that you made today determine where you are tomorrow"

I still remember it is this month that i made all the decision that turn my life upside down.From quitting a job,found another Job, to leaving (chrismatic)chruch,to enjoy Sin like there is no God in my heart, to made a decision to be fully bapist and finally to join an educational insitute.

It is every year of this month, that situation will turn out either the worst of it or the best of it, base on my decision.

In 2006 November, i learned that there is no such thing as shortcut in life, looking for shortcut to success is like building a road to failure.I thought i can made friends easily in chruch and get my degree easily from a private school and earn near to ten thousand every month.However things is not how i think it was.And all didn;t work out.

It takes time,patience,characther and situation(bad situation) to build up a friendship that last.Not just come together for some event and ask to smile at each other.And getting a degree is about how much commitment a person is willing to put in to learn the skill.that includes going down and dirty on the field and on the job to gain that experience.

At 2007 November, i learned that lied is everywhere.Yes, it everywhere.It is a truth which i not lying.
From courtship between lover, to work colleague, to a speech of "hope" from a saleman or financal planner and a chruch leader that speaks beautifully of how you can depend on him.
And lies is like a principle of building a house on a sand.It is easy to build,but as weather gets bad everything goes down.

Lies is like honey, it is very sweet.It is a fairytale.skillful liar wants the listener to do what they say in order to feed them more "honey".And liar love to give their listener half the truth.And in every lies, there is alway a fix ending of hope.

Truth is painful, truth is harsh.There is no fairytale in it and there is never a fix ending.But the way of truth lead to life and a peace of mind which worth more than Gold or diamond.

At 2008 November, i learn the reason behind the bondage of sin.And why the saint said that "there is no freedom in Sins".It take me though an emotional torture and hell to know this truth.One mistake in enjoying Sin and the punlishment is not afterlife but It is a death sentence to the life we are living in.And the toture will last in the person heart on every single breath he takes till his last breath.

This is not a religious peaching!!turn away from sin!!it has no benefit in it.One mistake in Sin and everyday of your life is like living in hell.Burn by guilt, shame,and toture to your mind,body and soul!!turn away from sin!!run away like you saw a ghost,run away like someone is going to beheaded you.Don't get near it.Get volient if someone wants tempt you to Sin.It worth beating up someone who tempt you,then fall to the temptation of Sin.

A peace of mind is worth everything.