I want...
To ride my motorbike down the expressway under the cooling weather on a lazy afternoon.
To sit under a cafe without worries while drinking a cup of coffee.
To hold my future wife hand while strolling alone the changi beach.
Travel to the neighbouring country, and enjoy the slow paces of that country.
To laid back and don't care what other have of their opinion. ( it not that i lazy till i don't work, it just my attitude is laid back not lazy)
To enjoy the peace of God, without a worry in my heart.. and all my prayer are thanks giving..
i want to walk slowly and enjoy the privilege of being alive.
To put happy thought in my mind without a single worry in my heart.
i want...
To made it all come true..
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Saturday, April 25, 2009
25th april 2009 ( Grace)
There is a question people always ask "If God is so good why did bad things happen to good people"
For the start bad thing happen to bad people too.(Just read the news)
I once read this news about a woman from a poor and unhappy family married to a guy in a foreign land.The family of this guy, treated this woman like one of their own. And she got a happy family that she long for. The story got a twist, when the woman suddenly killed the guy's whole family.When the judge asked her why she did, she answered that she was jealous of the happiness of the family she was married to.The more she saw them in a bliss, the more she wanted to kill them.
Have you ever wonder the miracle of a person riding a bike? It at a speed that is so dangerous,and the rider is not cover by anything. Yet most people actually ride on this thing for more than 50 years. During my experience of riding , i have seen rider riding at a speed that can made mistake easily as they are over taking lane dangerously. And some driver will tailgate the rider and overtake them in a distance that one mistake can prove fatal.
God grace is over the woman in a foreign land, God is watching over the woman and the man's family. God is watching over this one woman over billions of people and bring her out of poverty. And yet this woman chose to end her blessing. And i know God did not chose this for the family. it the woman who chose this path.
God's grace is over the rider, when they are riding from one place to another. It the rider that chose the dangerous path of cutting lane.
For the start bad thing happen to bad people too.(Just read the news)
I once read this news about a woman from a poor and unhappy family married to a guy in a foreign land.The family of this guy, treated this woman like one of their own. And she got a happy family that she long for. The story got a twist, when the woman suddenly killed the guy's whole family.When the judge asked her why she did, she answered that she was jealous of the happiness of the family she was married to.The more she saw them in a bliss, the more she wanted to kill them.
Have you ever wonder the miracle of a person riding a bike? It at a speed that is so dangerous,and the rider is not cover by anything. Yet most people actually ride on this thing for more than 50 years. During my experience of riding , i have seen rider riding at a speed that can made mistake easily as they are over taking lane dangerously. And some driver will tailgate the rider and overtake them in a distance that one mistake can prove fatal.
God grace is over the woman in a foreign land, God is watching over the woman and the man's family. God is watching over this one woman over billions of people and bring her out of poverty. And yet this woman chose to end her blessing. And i know God did not chose this for the family. it the woman who chose this path.
God's grace is over the rider, when they are riding from one place to another. It the rider that chose the dangerous path of cutting lane.
25th april 2009 (Bliss)
In a rural area, There were two farmer.They are father and son related.
The father works hard on the field and the son stay indoor to study hard.
One day, the son asked his father "Pa, it's so hot in here, got any solution to lower the temperature?"
And his father replied "Go out in the sun for about half and hour then come back in the house, you will feel much cooler".
It pretty lame story but very logical. When we lose the thing we take for granted, we will feel bless if we have the things as they use to be.
Things such as health, food, money and friend. Everybody has a down time, during those time we feel like having those thing that we take for granted.
It is a theory that everybody knows even me. I can be even be mocked at for saying such a simple theory.
However, when emotion went high, who will actually stick to this theory?
There was this rich girl i used to know(she live in a three storeys detached house), she commented her friend about her habit of complaining about every little things, and she acted like a noble and well-learned girl saying that her friend should not takes thing for granted as she herself is not like that.
The interesting part was that, when she got scolded by her father, the "noble and well-learned girl" left the house and live with her guy friend for a week.
"Never say never, never say ever"
The father works hard on the field and the son stay indoor to study hard.
One day, the son asked his father "Pa, it's so hot in here, got any solution to lower the temperature?"
And his father replied "Go out in the sun for about half and hour then come back in the house, you will feel much cooler".
It pretty lame story but very logical. When we lose the thing we take for granted, we will feel bless if we have the things as they use to be.
Things such as health, food, money and friend. Everybody has a down time, during those time we feel like having those thing that we take for granted.
It is a theory that everybody knows even me. I can be even be mocked at for saying such a simple theory.
However, when emotion went high, who will actually stick to this theory?
There was this rich girl i used to know(she live in a three storeys detached house), she commented her friend about her habit of complaining about every little things, and she acted like a noble and well-learned girl saying that her friend should not takes thing for granted as she herself is not like that.
The interesting part was that, when she got scolded by her father, the "noble and well-learned girl" left the house and live with her guy friend for a week.
"Never say never, never say ever"
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
23th april 2009 ( 1/2 journal - rejections) part 1.
The road to learning is tough and painful. The reward that reap out of it, is worth it.
When i was in my national service time, i was quite naive in thinking that hardwork will somehow work out for me in the world outside. However that is not true, it is how smart you work and what kind of work you are working in. Getting to know that comes from all the trail and error in picking up all kinds of jobs along my ways.
What kind of trail and error? It more of error in my thinking than my ways
I used to think that by working a low paid job (700 - 1200 per month) will be enough for me, as i will save up a lot to cover back and in the long run, success in life with my saving. To be flank, that kind of thinking is wrong, wrong and damn WRONG. (i will slap my old self in the head if i am standing in front of him) . The reason for this is because expense will get high as time comes.Unexpected happening will occur. i need to add all these up and find a salary that can need all this things that comes my ways.
After knowing this, i was half way to the right path. (Noted, i was "half way to the right path") I began searching for means that can need that requirement. I began to take up degree course(despite i don't have that much cash to meet pay the whole thing), with the rationalise of getting ahead in a job with the highest paid so i don't have to suffer so much. I took up a part time job, thinking it will pay for my studies. so i WAS very sure i am "smart" and going on with my plan.
I was very wrong.(see another bang on the wall) my plan was good, but i didn't plan for the worst outcome. In every plan, there must be a worst case scenario in it. Mine didn't have it.
The good about my plan was that, i able to work as a psychologist with a very high paid
( good vs bad ratio 1:0)
the bad thing which i avoid thinking or avoid finding the solution for it and just drive in was :
1)In what degree or percentage was the Cerf recognise? ( good vs bad ratio 1:1)
2)Was my money management logical? in term of saving, expense and paying for my school fee?
(good vs bad ratio 1:2)
3)how deep is my research on this line on psychologist and the school that i taken up?( good vs ratio 1:4)
4)is my job link with my study or was the salary able to support the fee?(good vs bad ratio 1:5)
to be continue...
When i was in my national service time, i was quite naive in thinking that hardwork will somehow work out for me in the world outside. However that is not true, it is how smart you work and what kind of work you are working in. Getting to know that comes from all the trail and error in picking up all kinds of jobs along my ways.
What kind of trail and error? It more of error in my thinking than my ways
I used to think that by working a low paid job (700 - 1200 per month) will be enough for me, as i will save up a lot to cover back and in the long run, success in life with my saving. To be flank, that kind of thinking is wrong, wrong and damn WRONG. (i will slap my old self in the head if i am standing in front of him) . The reason for this is because expense will get high as time comes.Unexpected happening will occur. i need to add all these up and find a salary that can need all this things that comes my ways.
After knowing this, i was half way to the right path. (Noted, i was "half way to the right path") I began searching for means that can need that requirement. I began to take up degree course(despite i don't have that much cash to meet pay the whole thing), with the rationalise of getting ahead in a job with the highest paid so i don't have to suffer so much. I took up a part time job, thinking it will pay for my studies. so i WAS very sure i am "smart" and going on with my plan.
I was very wrong.(see another bang on the wall) my plan was good, but i didn't plan for the worst outcome. In every plan, there must be a worst case scenario in it. Mine didn't have it.
The good about my plan was that, i able to work as a psychologist with a very high paid
( good vs bad ratio 1:0)
the bad thing which i avoid thinking or avoid finding the solution for it and just drive in was :
1)In what degree or percentage was the Cerf recognise? ( good vs bad ratio 1:1)
2)Was my money management logical? in term of saving, expense and paying for my school fee?
(good vs bad ratio 1:2)
3)how deep is my research on this line on psychologist and the school that i taken up?( good vs ratio 1:4)
4)is my job link with my study or was the salary able to support the fee?(good vs bad ratio 1:5)
to be continue...
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
15th april 2009( clouded)
I've once read a quote saying "believe in yourself, you know more than you think you know"
I was confuse by this quote. The reason being, we as human being need to learn from outside source such as our mistakes, books, school, people around us.
What is the rationalise behind "you know more than you think you know"?
After having a bad month of being piss off by a series of situation, i began to get in touch with my emotional side. When I'm relax and clear minded, things looks very easy. However, when i in a situation when fear and anger consume me, things no longer looks as easy as it is, even though it is just a simple task.
Sometime when we are right, people tend to talk us down by using our emotion. Making us feel that we are wrong, but in fact we are more than right.
Emotion clouded us of our judgement, letting us do things that we aren't suppose to do.
A clouded mind makes a wrong judgement right, and a right judgement wrong.
During my off day when i got time to read the strait times. I came across an article on yoga. It written that once a mind is disrupted the person will have very short series of breath. Once a person mind is clear, focus and relax. The person will have a longer breath.
I began to observe this when i was getting stress up and anxious at work, my breath did indeed get short. Then i began to lengthen my breath, and the result is where i began to slow down my speed of handling thing, and somehow thing are much clearer.
Indeed, we must train to believe in our self. As we know much more than what we really know.
I was confuse by this quote. The reason being, we as human being need to learn from outside source such as our mistakes, books, school, people around us.
What is the rationalise behind "you know more than you think you know"?
After having a bad month of being piss off by a series of situation, i began to get in touch with my emotional side. When I'm relax and clear minded, things looks very easy. However, when i in a situation when fear and anger consume me, things no longer looks as easy as it is, even though it is just a simple task.
Sometime when we are right, people tend to talk us down by using our emotion. Making us feel that we are wrong, but in fact we are more than right.
Emotion clouded us of our judgement, letting us do things that we aren't suppose to do.
A clouded mind makes a wrong judgement right, and a right judgement wrong.
During my off day when i got time to read the strait times. I came across an article on yoga. It written that once a mind is disrupted the person will have very short series of breath. Once a person mind is clear, focus and relax. The person will have a longer breath.
I began to observe this when i was getting stress up and anxious at work, my breath did indeed get short. Then i began to lengthen my breath, and the result is where i began to slow down my speed of handling thing, and somehow thing are much clearer.
Indeed, we must train to believe in our self. As we know much more than what we really know.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
13th april 2009 (confront)
"You like to run away or avoid solving the problem".
We had many words throw to us in a day, only a few will hit us. That day, this sentence hit me hard.
I began to question myself about the way i handle thing. Does i find a temporary solution or do i find another way to go around it instead of solving it head on?
it a matter of case by case basis.
I no longer ask people to give me opinion of how to change for the better. To me, it better to be scolded or lecturer out of anger and out of good faith of the other party rather than volunteer to be advise.
I learn this the hard way. if one is to ask another person on advise to improve oneself, the person is like handing his life to another person. if that person has an interior motive.
We had many words throw to us in a day, only a few will hit us. That day, this sentence hit me hard.
I began to question myself about the way i handle thing. Does i find a temporary solution or do i find another way to go around it instead of solving it head on?
it a matter of case by case basis.
I no longer ask people to give me opinion of how to change for the better. To me, it better to be scolded or lecturer out of anger and out of good faith of the other party rather than volunteer to be advise.
I learn this the hard way. if one is to ask another person on advise to improve oneself, the person is like handing his life to another person. if that person has an interior motive.
12th April 2009 (blue sky)
I stared at the sky. It is blue. It is peaceful.
Below the sky, people are busy minding their own business. The sky remain still.
Sometime the sky is filled with clouds, but it still feel peaceful when one is looking at it.
Below the sky, people are arguing and children are crying. The sky remain still.
Sometime the sky is clear and all we can see is the bright shinning sun.
Below the sky, endless flow of vehicle passing under it. unfortunate happening sometime will happen and blood can be seen, the related one will be seen weeping. The sky remain still.
Emotional run high for some.
Couple seems to lose track of time in the moment of their own.
A Man seen staring down with pending of thought in his mind.
Young yuppies stare at the computer screen for hours.
Devotee seen praying quieting.
People laughing at each other.
The poor raise her hand to beg for money.
Best friend sitting at a cafe having a good time.
Man sleeping on at the floor.
Woman chatting on the phone while crossing the street.
A teen is busy study the subject from his book on the table.
A girl seems to be sad but hold back her tears as she walk through the streets.
I.. walked through the street on a peaceful afternoon. I had spotted them and wrote them down.
No matter what we did, it doesn't seems to disturb the peace of the sky. The sky doesn't change even we shout at it.
Below the sky, people are busy minding their own business. The sky remain still.
Sometime the sky is filled with clouds, but it still feel peaceful when one is looking at it.
Below the sky, people are arguing and children are crying. The sky remain still.
Sometime the sky is clear and all we can see is the bright shinning sun.
Below the sky, endless flow of vehicle passing under it. unfortunate happening sometime will happen and blood can be seen, the related one will be seen weeping. The sky remain still.
Emotional run high for some.
Couple seems to lose track of time in the moment of their own.
A Man seen staring down with pending of thought in his mind.
Young yuppies stare at the computer screen for hours.
Devotee seen praying quieting.
People laughing at each other.
The poor raise her hand to beg for money.
Best friend sitting at a cafe having a good time.
Man sleeping on at the floor.
Woman chatting on the phone while crossing the street.
A teen is busy study the subject from his book on the table.
A girl seems to be sad but hold back her tears as she walk through the streets.
I.. walked through the street on a peaceful afternoon. I had spotted them and wrote them down.
No matter what we did, it doesn't seems to disturb the peace of the sky. The sky doesn't change even we shout at it.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
7th April 2009 (understood)
Spirit versus flesh.
We heard that all the time. It's a common phase use when you are in a pursue to any spiritual journey.
However, just what is the different between the spirit and the flesh?
The flesh is weak, it crave for lust, greed.In the bottom line, it is a reactive force on whatever happen surrounding it.
The spirit is the opposite of what the flesh is. It is a force that is proactive on whatever happen surrounding it.
In order for the spirit to flourish, the flesh has to suffer. In order for the flesh to flourish, the spirit has to die or be ignore.
Both is an equally strong force.
Learn to be good takes three years, learn to be bad takes 3 days. It easier to destroy than to build.
The flesh can help strengthen the spirit through resist of temptation.
The spirit can be flourish by meditation, reading, praying, resisting, retreat, training.
Once a person fall into temptation, it hard to put in on track into the spiritual journey
We heard that all the time. It's a common phase use when you are in a pursue to any spiritual journey.
However, just what is the different between the spirit and the flesh?
The flesh is weak, it crave for lust, greed.In the bottom line, it is a reactive force on whatever happen surrounding it.
The spirit is the opposite of what the flesh is. It is a force that is proactive on whatever happen surrounding it.
In order for the spirit to flourish, the flesh has to suffer. In order for the flesh to flourish, the spirit has to die or be ignore.
Both is an equally strong force.
Learn to be good takes three years, learn to be bad takes 3 days. It easier to destroy than to build.
The flesh can help strengthen the spirit through resist of temptation.
The spirit can be flourish by meditation, reading, praying, resisting, retreat, training.
Once a person fall into temptation, it hard to put in on track into the spiritual journey
Sunday, April 5, 2009
5th April 2009 (long term vs short term)
I a "random thinking" kind of guy. I would all the sudden think of a question and go find out about it.
During my ITE days when i was idling around with my buddies at the shopping mall, i suddenly raise a question to my friend "How did the bank get the money to start up?"
"Aiyah, they just tell people to deposit money into their bank for interest rate and safely. With those money the client deposit, they use it to start out. It a game of gamble. If it didn't work out well the bank will just close down." he replied
I loved the ITE days, it's a time when my mind was filled with expectation. I don't know about youngster now, but people at my time was filled with expectation for the coming future.
In my quest to know more about financial stuff (before some financial "guru" deceived me of my hard earn money) I learned of things deeper than that.
There are two kind of investment, one is called "long term" another is called "short term".
For long term investment, you will heard something similar to this
"If you put money in your bank , you only get 0.02 interest rate per annual. However, if you put money in the plan that i going to introduce to you. it will get you a return of 4 to 5 per cent of interest rate per annual. In ten years you will get more return than what your bank will offer."
let's start from long term investment. it not actually "long term". It is long term for the client but short term for the company selling the product. let's be logic, a bank or any financial company need loan to start up. They need to made profit. They need to know how to get money fast, and the only way is through short term investment. The so called safe investment actually move with the market.
However, long term investment is needed. It is a back up source. A monthly input of money into a financial plan is a smart move. For my opinion, once the ten to five years is over ,the money should be put to short term investment instead of continue the plan.
What is short term investment? It is what you called "risky investment"
These are the list of short term investment
Stocks,for ex,future, options, real estate. (there are more) i like to called them financial tools.
The return is not monthly or yearly. it is daily.
There are investor called "big boys" known as those rice guys or bankers, and there are investor called the "small boys also known as retail investor or leverage investor.
During my ITE days when i was idling around with my buddies at the shopping mall, i suddenly raise a question to my friend "How did the bank get the money to start up?"
"Aiyah, they just tell people to deposit money into their bank for interest rate and safely. With those money the client deposit, they use it to start out. It a game of gamble. If it didn't work out well the bank will just close down." he replied
I loved the ITE days, it's a time when my mind was filled with expectation. I don't know about youngster now, but people at my time was filled with expectation for the coming future.
In my quest to know more about financial stuff (before some financial "guru" deceived me of my hard earn money) I learned of things deeper than that.
There are two kind of investment, one is called "long term" another is called "short term".
For long term investment, you will heard something similar to this
"If you put money in your bank , you only get 0.02 interest rate per annual. However, if you put money in the plan that i going to introduce to you. it will get you a return of 4 to 5 per cent of interest rate per annual. In ten years you will get more return than what your bank will offer."
let's start from long term investment. it not actually "long term". It is long term for the client but short term for the company selling the product. let's be logic, a bank or any financial company need loan to start up. They need to made profit. They need to know how to get money fast, and the only way is through short term investment. The so called safe investment actually move with the market.
However, long term investment is needed. It is a back up source. A monthly input of money into a financial plan is a smart move. For my opinion, once the ten to five years is over ,the money should be put to short term investment instead of continue the plan.
What is short term investment? It is what you called "risky investment"
These are the list of short term investment
Stocks,for ex,future, options, real estate. (there are more) i like to called them financial tools.
The return is not monthly or yearly. it is daily.
There are investor called "big boys" known as those rice guys or bankers, and there are investor called the "small boys also known as retail investor or leverage investor.
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