23th april 2009 ( 1/2 journal - rejections) part 1.

The road to learning is tough and painful. The reward that reap out of it, is worth it.

When i was in my national service time, i was quite naive in thinking that hardwork will somehow work out for me in the world outside. However that is not true, it is how smart you work and what kind of work you are working in. Getting to know that comes from all the trail and error in picking up all kinds of jobs along my ways.

What kind of trail and error? It more of error in my thinking than my ways

I used to think that by working a low paid job (700 - 1200 per month) will be enough for me, as i will save up a lot to cover back and in the long run, success in life with my saving. To be flank, that kind of thinking is wrong, wrong and damn WRONG. (i will slap my old self in the head if i am standing in front of him) . The reason for this is because expense will get high as time comes.Unexpected happening will occur. i need to add all these up and find a salary that can need all this things that comes my ways.

After knowing this, i was half way to the right path. (Noted, i was "half way to the right path") I began searching for means that can need that requirement. I began to take up degree course(despite i don't have that much cash to meet pay the whole thing), with the rationalise of getting ahead in a job with the highest paid so i don't have to suffer so much. I took up a part time job, thinking it will pay for my studies. so i WAS very sure i am "smart" and going on with my plan.

I was very wrong.(see another bang on the wall) my plan was good, but i didn't plan for the worst outcome. In every plan, there must be a worst case scenario in it. Mine didn't have it.

The good about my plan was that, i able to work as a psychologist with a very high paid
( good vs bad ratio 1:0)

the bad thing which i avoid thinking or avoid finding the solution for it and just drive in was :
1)In what degree or percentage was the Cerf recognise? ( good vs bad ratio 1:1)
2)Was my money management logical? in term of saving, expense and paying for my school fee?
(good vs bad ratio 1:2)
3)how deep is my research on this line on psychologist and the school that i taken up?( good vs ratio 1:4)
4)is my job link with my study or was the salary able to support the fee?(good vs bad ratio 1:5)


to be continue...